Saturday, September 2, 2006


"Without struggle, there is no growth." Sayeth my good friend and often inspirational source of knowledge, Theory.

She has been blogging for a while and always has something good to say. Ever since high school she has always been a step ahead and I like having someone to catch.

I've been doing a lot of partying lately but in the back of my mind I have kept my covenant to discipline fresh in my mind. I'm starting my training this Monday and I have resolved to only go out one night a school week and then whatever on weekends. Sleep is going to be important for success.

There are a few schools of thought that I have encountered when discussing productivity. One would argue that removing one self from negative stimuli is the key to maximizing personal production and while I agree that while this is always beneficial, I belong to the school of success under any constraints.

I should be able to split a hair with all the noise and distraction in the world bearing down upon me. I want to be that good, concentration honed and polished like a knife edge. If I can not control myself under fire, then let me be consumed.

There is no fire. There is only goal, determination, and the path.

Thursday, August 31, 2006

Don't get addicted

I am guilty of starting many a person on the Sudoku craze. Here is the next one Tringo is crazy. Have fun kids ;)

In other news Lamb of God released their new CD last week, Sacrament. Some quality metal but overall I think I wasn't as impressed as I could have been.

Unearth's new effort, III is visceral and incendiary. Makes me want to hit some weights or the rugby field.

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

it beckons

Lying in bed tonight strumming a few low frequency notes and I felt it again. Sometimes I'm not sure if it is an addiction but now I'm beginning to feel that it is on the one thing in this world that I cannot walk away from. It whispers to me like soft tremors that I feel in my cartilage.

I am weak because I have a bacterial infection from this strep throat, but I don't need these painkillers I am prescribed. I need my pain and I miss it, I will welcome it when it returns to me like a veteran from distant war.

I felt the sides of my ribcage, tender from a few push ups at rugby practice. All too familiar for this body that heals slowly each night, waiting for the chance to perform.

If you are not going heavy then go the fuck home. If you are not laying on the bathroom floor and people are not walking buy you asking you why your sweat is a puddle. If your eyes are not bloodshot and you cannot feel the veins spidering across the reach of your skull, fighting to supply oxygen to your head.

Do not grate your flesh with the coarse beauty that are those grips, the unkind steel that never tires of war.

I have been away for three weeks now. I have to go back, I have to set my play list and lay out my clothes. I have to to lace my shoes and tighten my straps. I have to wear sweat pants and an oversize shirt that I might not gaze upon an imperfect frame. Monday, I'm going back. In sickness or in health, till death do us part.

Stuck in my head today

Stone Sour - Through the Glass Lyrics

"I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head"

Such a cool little song. I think they are so much better that that abortion of music called Slipknot. A lot of new music out lately. I really like Rick Ross's Port of Miami, many good guest stars on it as well.

I love TCM. Old movies are so so so much better than the ones that come out today. I watch crap like Pirates of the Caribbean and compare it to the masterpieces, the intricately woven stories from master story tellers and directors.

H.M. Pulham, Esq. was a movie I say the other night with one of the most beautiful women, Hedy Lamarr. Such a great story that can appeal to everyone at ever age.

I love European actresses, such lips, such features... Just beautiful. For me you can't beat that dark hair and dark eyes combination.